What would happen if I just decided to never speak again? What if I locked myself into my own shadow and just ceased to exist as I do in this world? Would anyone notice? Would they really care?

Honestly, I seriously doubt anyone would miss my words, they don't seem to hear them anyway.

No, I am not suicidal, let me just clear that up right now. I have a strong belief that God put me here for a reason - even if I have yet to discover what that reason is. So far, it seems I am here to be a punching bag - both physically and emotionally for this whole world. I am a dumping ground for everyone I meet. My feelings don't seem to matter to anyone - not really.. and I don't know how to change it or fix it.

I figured if I just faded into the background, then no one could hurt me with their words and actions. If I just sat silently while life passed me by, then no one would say I was opinionated, or that I was wrong about everything - including my feelings. No one would yell at me for asking for a hug. No one would tell me to shut up. I would be silent. I could retreat into my loneliness and no one would ever have to pretend that they gave a damn about me.

Yes, it would be lonely - but no more so than it already is.